Forevers are Composed of Nows

Hey guys! So over the coarse of the last year, well the beginning of the school year, I noticed something. Something important, emotionally and physically. What I noticed was that I was not surrounding myself with the people that made me happy. I always let other girls get to me. I let them get to me in ways no one person should let themselves get into. I wouldn't say, "Insecure" because i'm not that type who lets herself bring the worst out of her. An appropriate way of saying this is, I always let myself down. Weather I didn't like how I looked that day or struggles in math class. I kept bringing myself down. The number one reason was because I surrounded myself with people that didn't make me happy. With people that said things they shouldn't say not just to me, but to anyone. And that is unacceptable! We should not let people get to us by the words that they spill from their tounges! At the very beginning of the school year(2015-2016) I said to myself that I would not let myself be surrounded by those types of people anymore. And that's what I did. Yet, it didn't work one-hundred percent. I noticed that I still talked to the people that made me feel poorly about myself. Even if they came up to me to talk to me, I still faked a conversation with them so I wouldn't come off as rude and trying to ignore them.

         The other reason why I always put myself down was because I was unpleased in what I was doing. Math class was-and is- still very difficult for me to grasp quickly, and sometimes I didn't get grades that I wanted, or I worked hours a night to get my math homework done. And that's just my math! I still have language arts and science that can be a pain in the butt. I constantly and continuously study and work a crazy amount of time to get what I want. But I noticed I still sat in bed hammering myself with the fact that I thought I was not good enough. Not good enough at math or science or anything academic related. And even now, a couple of days ago, I said I wasn't good enough, and I sat and cried in my bed that even with pounds of books in my backpack and studing 4 hours each evening, I'm not getting the grades I want. So since its 2016, I will change this. I will change both these aspects of myself that I don't want to be part of me anymore. If I want these things to go away forever, than I have to start now. We have to start now. And how do you do this? Well, here's a list of the top 5 ways to achieve your goals. (Whatever they are)

1. Unfriend, unfollow, and unsubscribe, to any of the people that bring you down on social medias. That's what I did, and it helped hella lot. Believe in me.

2. If social media is so bad to the point that it's making you cry each night, or even just making you feel bad, delete it completely. Erase everything. I know it's hard because you want to see what others say about you, or you want to see what the 'populars' are doing and then judge them about it. But don't do it. It's taken me two years to understand to give all this up. But once I let go, it's significantly helped me. 

3. Do not talk to any of the people they don't make you happy. At all. I mean it! Don't say 'hi' to them, and don't make eye contact with them. And this is not to be taken in a mean way, but the more you avoid, the better the result. I did this all this year and I haven't had one conversation with the girls that haven't made me happy. And it's just the best feeling.

4. Take internet detoxes and enjoy the beauty surrounding you. Never take anything for granted. I feel like we all get so caught up in the Internet world that we forget what beauty is surrounded by you right now, as you read this. I usually take a couple days off of all social media. I know it may be hard, but I highly highly recommend this to all people.

5. Stay positive. What I mean is, don't let all the negativity break your walls. Fight with it till you win, and I know you will win. I promise! 

I'll talk to you guys soon! 

-Diana  

(Sorry if there's incorrect grammar and weird letters!:P)